Some Simple Stress Relievers

In the middle of a stressful day, or maybe even in the beginning or end of a stressful day, we can help ourselves with some very simple stress relievers.  I recently had the pleasure of working with a group of elementary school teachers and demonstrated a few easy and quick stress relievers.  As a result of that I am posting five short audio recordings that walk you through how to do each of these simple maneuvers.

  1. Taking Your Seat: As simple as this sounds, a correct and attentive posture matters.  Remember, when you are doing a formal mindfulness practice you are training your mind to focus in a non-judgmental way.  That focus is not just a mental activity, it is a full body activity.  So sitting properly, relaxed but attentive, matters.  I suspect that after listening to this recording one time you’ll not need to listen again. Here it is:
  2. Forehead and Sinus Massage: Take a few minutes to relax the muscles of your face and help your sinuses to flow a bit more evenly.  You may even find yourself getting relief from a tension headache!  Simple and quick:
  3. Neck Stretches Part 1: These simple stretches, done in a sitting posture, loosen up the neck muscles and are very refreshing:
  4. Neck Stretches Part 2: More of the same, involving the shoulders as well:
  5. Face Squint Tensing Relaxing: When we are holding muscles with great tension we activate the body’s stress system.  Simple noticing tensed muscles and relaxing them intentionally can not only ease the body’s burden but actually slow down activity of mind, helping you to get better perspective on the issues of the day.  This recording gives you guidance for tensing/relaxing facial muscles and the muscles of the hands and arms.  But you can do this with any muscle group in your body:

You can do all of these activities in about 8 to 10 minutes!  And if you do these regularly, you’ll even condition your body to relax quickly with just doing the barest of these exercises.  If you would like to download any of these recordings please contact me at my email address, walshjm54@yahoo.com, and I’ll connect you to my DropBox account for easy download.  Enjoy!

Peace,

Jim

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Coffee Tongue

“Tell me about yourself when you’re at your best.”  Jon Kabat-Zinn uses this opener teaching mindfulness, and so do I.  My response is always the same: “When I’m teaching mindfulness!”

This week I had the pleasure to teach a group of dedicated professionals from Communities in Schools in Delaware (CIS-DE; http://www.cisdelaware.org) on behalf of GIFT (www.moremindfulworld.org), a non-profit focused on bringing mindfulness to underserved populations.  CIS-DE works with our children and adolescents who are at high risk for dropping out of school, developing relationships with at-risk youths in hopes of empowering them to complete their education.  It is difficult work, stressful at times, and our intention at GIFT is to help the helpers with stress reduction training, at the same time teaching the helpers simple ways they can share mindfulness practices with the population they serve.

The first meditation I guided for the CIS-DE group was simple body and breath awareness that lasted about 12 minutes.  The response was immediate: that was SO long!  Several members of the group, being new to meditation, expressed how difficult it is to not be doing, and instead focus on simply being.  A few mentioned how relaxed they felt afterwards, and one, who we’ll simply call “L,” acknowledged that she struggled with nodding off into sleep.  All of these responses are typical of the first exposure to a meditative practice.

The second meditation I guided was the classic “raisin mind” meditation (if you want to try this yourself go to this link for a guide: https://ggia.berkeley.edu/practice/raisin_meditation).  This time we worked for about 15 minutes, and at the end, as is usual, I asked “What was it like to use your mind that way?  What happened?”  The first person to respond was L.  As I am recalling this from memory that is three days old, I will have to paraphrase:

“At first I thought that this didn’t make any sense.  All I could taste was coffee!  I had a cup of coffee shortly before we began.  You said to ‘notice the raisin on my tongue’ and all I could notice on my tongue was the taste of coffee.  Then you said something weird: ‘notice the feeling of the taste of the raisin.’  I thought ‘the feeling of taste?’  That was strange to me.  Taste isn’t a feeling.  But when I thought of taste as a feeling I was able to find the taste of the raisin on my tongue.  It was a small taste, but it was there.  Then I thought ‘if I could miss a small taste on my tongue because I have coffee tongue, then what other small things do I miss during the day because my mind is focused on something else?’  In a way my mind can be just like my ‘coffee tongue,’ and I miss the raisin in the room.  When people look at these children we’re helping, do they see the sweet raisin in them or just taste the residue of coffee in their own minds?”

This is a remarkable insight, and one that all of us can benefit from.  How often does my mind become a “coffee tongue,” unable to recognize and experience another taste, especially a small taste like a raisin?  Do I truly see the other?  Or do I see the other only through my own mental filter, an analogue to L’s coffee tongue?  And isn’t it the raisins that are most important to see?  A teen comes into the room, and he fits a stereotype that brings up my own conditioned responses, my own prejudices.  I just can’t get past my coffee tongue to taste the sweetness of the raisin in front of me.

The next time you’re in an experience or an event that is unpleasant for you, consider the possibility that your own mental filters are preventing you from seeing what matters the most.  It happens to me all the time; there’s no shame in this happening to you.  If we are dedicated to forming the intention every day to be mindful then we can recognize our own coffee tongues with greater skill.  Going into the day with the intention to notice the raisins can only make our own lives better, and at the same time enable our fundamentally human gift of compassion to emerge easily and naturally.

By the way, after the second meditation, longer than the first, a few of the group said “thank you for doing a shorter meditation.  It was easier when it was not so long.”  When I told them how long it actually had been we had a good laugh, and then proceeded to an even shorter meditation of twenty five minutes!

Three Quotes

In 2005 the Vietnamese Zen monk, Thich That Hanh, was asked: “You will be 80 this year.  Do you plan to retire as a spiritual teacher at any point?”  His answer was eloquent and concluded with these words: “When people are exposed to (mindfulness practice), they are inspired.  You don’t need to talk in order to teach.  You need to live your life mindfully and deeply.  Thank you.”

St. Francis of Assisi has been quoted as saying: “Preach the Gospel and if necessary use words.”  Most scholars of Francis state that this is likely an apocryphal story, but it is certainly suggestive of the kind of man we believe Francis was.

Chuck Knox, NFL Coach on a variety of teams including the Buffalo Bills and the Los Angeles Rams died last Saturday at age 86.  He once told his team “What you do speaks so well there’s no need to hear what you say.”

In their own way each is giving us the same instruction.

Years ago I was involved with the Rite of Christian Initiation of Adults (RCIA) at a Catholic parish in Newark DE.  When I first joined the RCIA team the facilitator of the group was a wonderful gentleman named Jim Gilmore, who was a recently retired engineer at the time.  Jim passed away a few years ago, but I’ll never forget his answer to this question: “Why do you give so much time to the RCIA?”  He told me that a few years earlier a work colleague had asked him what religion he belonged to.  He recalled that he told the man that he was a Catholic, and the man replied “Oh, I didn’t know.”  Jim told me “that shook me up.  If I’m a Catholic, shouldn’t people be able to tell?  Ever since then I try to live my faith.  Not proselytize or preach, just live the way a Catholic should.  And that means trying to help people, be kind and loving, and RCIA is how I do that.”

I’ve heard the same more than once from men and women attending their first meeting of Alcoholics Anonymous.  “I’m not sure what the program is about, but I want what that person has.”  And what that person “has” is typically grace under fire, calm in the midst of a storm, kindness in the face of antagonism, good humor no matter the stress level, the capacity to love even when hungry, angry, lonely, or tired.

It’s not “I’ve got this mindfulness, see, and when I need it I can do it and I feel better.”  Rather, it is a matter of being mindful, fully present in each moment, open hearted and open minded.  You should be able to tell that a person is living intentionally and mindfully by their presence with you, from his/her simple intention to be that kind of person.

Live mindfully moment to moment.  Fail at it often, learn from each mindless moment.  Then form the intention again.  Intend to BE mindful; don’t worry about explaining it.

And, if you do that, then you ARE a mindfulness teacher.

Peace,

Jim

Tempus per Annum (Ordinary Time)

I grew up in a Catholic family, attended Catholic schools at all levels including graduate school, and fully acknowledge that the better part of a lifetime immersed in Catholic traditions, liturgy and theology have left their indelible impressions.  As a child I looked forward to the great feasts of Christianity and their celebration in a Catholic context.  The solemn days of Lent followed by the glorious days of Eastertide, and of course the anticipation of Advent followed by the joyousness of the Christmas season.  And in between it all lay “Ordinary Time,” which to a Catholic schoolboy seemed like nothing more than the long days spent waiting for the more important days to reappear.

As an adult I became involved in my Catholic parish’s liturgical life, especially the process referred to as the Rite of Christian Initiation of Adults, or RCIA.  For the better part of 17 years I taught scores of Catechumens preparing for their Baptism, including sponsorship of three, and led retreats that generally were held shortly before some liturgical rite of passage, including Baptism at the Easter Vigil.  It was in the context of helping to guide these people seeking conversion that I began to learn about and greatly appreciate Ordinary Time.

The Latin phrase used to denote Ordinary Time, Tempus per Annum, translates literally as “season through the year.”  During Ordinary Time the Christian is encouraged to consider the entire lifetime of Jesus, his teachings, the signs and miracles he performed, and the mystery of his death and resurrection.  During Ordinary Time one is called to absorb the lessons of Christianity, an act of contemplation (in Latin, theoria), and bring those lessons to life, an act of practice (in Latin, praxis).  Theoria is the work of bringing one’s awareness alive to the presence of God.  But contemplation absent praxis is empty, devoid of spiritual growth.  Christian theoria enlivens our hearts, but it is in praxis on that life of the heart that we draw nearer to God.

Today I choose to live outside of the boundaries of any organized form of religion.  As much as Catholic life formed me, and as permanent as that formation has proven to be, I’ve moved into a different spiritual way of being, seeking awareness to be alive to the presence of the hearts I encounter during the course of an ordinary day, throughout the seasons of the year that mark our shared ordinary time.  My practice has become meditative rather than ritualized, both in solitude and in my relationships.  Within the context of this new way of spiritual ordinary time I have found many occasions for feast and celebration, some of them associated with traditional religious or secular events, but more often in the pith and marrow of deep connections with other hearts.  As extraordinary as these connection events can be, I still find deep solace and peace in my newfound ordinary time.

Our mindfulness practices are celebrations of ordinary time.  Day to day we are called to be fully present to the emerging events that seem mundane, yet carry the crux of our enrichment.  A simple encounter at the grocery store, noticing some sadness in our neighbor, perhaps, responding with a smile or a word of kindness.  Walking mindfully down a crowded city street, noticing the feeling of the sun, even the cold sunshine of a wintry day, feeling joy arising in my chest.  Staying as fully present for my friend or acquaintance who is angry as I do for my young grandsons as they are curious and playful with me.  Every day is ordinary time, but it is in the ordinary moments that we find our satisfaction and contentment.

To the Buddhist enlightenment is not some far off land of Nirvana that we strive to reach.  Instead, to be enlightened is found in the moment in which we “have…seen and pierced through the surface and have got beyond the shadow and the disguise” (quote from The Asian Journal of Thomas Merton).  Again quoting Thomas Merton, “every moment and every event of every man’s life on earth plants something in his soul.”  Being mindful means being alive in each of these moments.  Each day is ordinary time, but that is when life is actually happening!  Are we present for life?  Do we recognize the source of our enlightenment in the eyes of each person we meet each day, including the antagonistic as well as the loving?

Cherish your ordinary time.  Wake up in each moment!  To be mindful means your heart is open, alive, and curious.  The feast days are grand, but those feast days are brackets around the full measure of your life.  Awakening happens now.

I’ll leave you with this lovely poem from Diana Faulds, “Awakening Now.”  She speaks with such eloquence, more than I can muster!

Peace,

Jim

Awakening Now by Danna Faulds

Why wait for your awakening?

The moment your eyes are open, seize the day.

Would you hold back when the Beloved beckons?

Would you deliver your litany of sins like a child’s collection of sea shells, prized and labeled?

“No, I can’t step across the threshold,” you say, eyes downcast.

“I’m not worthy” I’m afraid, and my motives aren’t pure.

I’m not perfect, and surely I haven’t practiced nearly enough.

My meditation isn’t deep, and my prayers are sometimes insincere.

I still chew my fingernails, and the refrigerator isn’t clean.

“Do you value your reasons for staying small more than the light shining through the open door?

Forgive yourself.

Now is the only time you have to be whole.

Now is the sole moment that exists to live in the light of your true Self.

Perfection is not a prerequisite for anything but pain.

Please, oh please, don’t continue to believe in your disbelief.

This is the day of your awakening.

Mindfulness, Raisins, and Contentment

This post was originally distributed as the January 2018 (1) Newsletter from GIFT, a non-profit dedicated to providing Mindfulness training to underserved populations, and supporting efforts to create a more Mindful world.  More information about GIFT can be found at More Mindful World.

In my work with people who are suffering from the disease of addiction I have learned that willpower will only get you so far.  An addicted person may use willpower to begin the recovery period, frequently energized by very bad experiences (e.g. “hitting bottom”) and the desire to get back into right relations with friends, family, and loved ones.  But I have also learned that recovery is rarely maintained over a long period of time without the suffering soul finding contentment, some measure of serenity in life that provides a new platform from which to see the world and choose one’s course.  In his play King Henry VI, Part 3, Shakespeare has his title character state that “My crown is in my heart, not on my head; not decked with diamonds and Indian stones, nor to be seen: my crown is called contentment, a crown it is that seldom kings enjoy.”

I met with the residents at Limen House (Limen House) in Wilmington again this week, something I get to do two or three times every month.  Limen House serves people who have experienced addiction and, frequently, homelessness.  Limen House gives its residents a long-term safe and healthy recovery environment.   Sitting in the men’s house a conversation about the nature of contentment arose, and we all came to realize that gratitude, compassion, and healthy pride all contribute to this “crown…that seldom kings enjoy.”  Then we did a favorite meditation: “Raisin Mind.”  If you are unfamiliar the Raisin Mind meditation is often used to introduce mindfulness.  It involves laying a raisin or two in your palm, feeling its wrinkles and texture with your fingertips, allowing its subtle but sweet aroma to touch your sense of smell, and finally resting a raisin gently on your tongue, noticing the sensations in your mouth and how the desire to chew builds.  Finally the raisin is chewed slowly and mindfully, and you remain aware of all of these sensations and witness the exquisite coordination between your tongue and your teeth, leading to a swallow and a final residue of taste and aroma.

When we completed this meditation there were many comments about the process and surprise about the magnitude of flavor in one little raisin.  Our group members noted how peaceful it felt to keep their minds focused in such a simple way, and how pleasant the process of eating could be.  All seemed persuaded to eat mindfully, certainly a sound and healthy practice.  But one response to this exercise in particular caught my attention.  One meditator, stating his general distaste for raisins, told us that the raisin in his palm seemed very large to him as he felt it gently in his fingertips with his eyes closed.  Then when he gazed downward at the raisin in his palm he was surprised to see how small it actually was, compared to his anticipation of what he would find.  He stated that in his life he has struggled with anticipation, always dreading outcomes, leading to debilitating anxiety and addiction.  “Most of the time,” he said, “it turns out that what I am most afraid will happen never does, or it’s not nearly as bad as I thought it would be.  It turns out that our worst fears are really just raisins, and that’s what I’ve learned today.”

As we enter this new year of 2018 let us remember that our commitment to practicing mindfulness is not just about stress reduction. Each time I sit and bring my attention to my breath, my body, and the activities of my mind I once again open the door to wisdom, finding the insights that my body/mind/breath have for me.  This week, this recoverer needed to find the insight that his fears turn out to be metaphorical raisins.  And by turning his mind attentively and gently to his own inner experience his wisdom was waiting for him.

So if you make no other New Years’ Resolutions perhaps you can make this one: bring mindfulness to your life every day this year.  Take a few minutes to sit, lay, walk, and/or do yoga mindfully in a formal way.  Stop and check in frequently every day, noticing body/mind/breath and smile to yourself, practicing acceptance, finding wisdom and compassion in such simple moments as well.

Peace,

Jim

Stress and Lawyers

The Journal of the Delaware State Bar Association recently published an article I wrote for them titled “Stress and Lawyers.”  It is longer than what I usually post here, and quite technical in its approach to stress and stress management.  But I thought it had some useful information so I am reposting it here.  The DSBA requires this language in any reprints of their articles:

This article originally appeared in the December 2017 issue of The Journal of the Delaware State Bar Association, a publication of the Delaware State Bar Association.  Copyright © Delaware State Bar Association 2017.  All rights reserved. Reprinted with permission.

In the twelve years that I have been teaching Mindfulness Based Stress Reduction I have only had three attorneys take the program.  This does not strike me as unusual given my experience working with attorneys as a Psycho Forensic Evaluator, mostly working on homicide cases.  The attorneys that I’ve met are driven to succeed, very goal directed, and proud of their capacity to take on more and more work without showing any signs of stress or strain.  But what is missed in the driven, high stress culture of the practice of law that I’ve observed is that, as famed Psychiatrist Bessel van der Kolk has noted in working with stressed out and traumatized people, the body keeps the score!

Let me explain what I mean by describing the activity of the autonomic nervous system.  In order to survive your body needs to maintain a steady balance between stimulation and relaxation.  When your body’s senses perceive any kind of stimulus the sympathetic nervous system (one branch of the autonomic nervous system) activates and increases your heart rate, blood pressure and respiration rate while suppressing the digestive and immune systems.  In this condition, the stress response, you feel awake and aroused.  Once the stimulus is removed from your perception your body activates the other branch of the autonomic nervous system, the parasympathetic nervous system, and the relaxation response begins.  Now your heart slows down, your blood pressure and respiration rate return to their baseline levels, your digestive and immune systems return to normal, and you begin to feel relaxed, and more likely to be able to fall asleep.  Both of these responses are sensitive to levels of stress hormones in your blood, particularly cortisol.  An increase in stress hormones activates the sympathetic nervous system, a decrease in stress hormones activates the parasympathetic nervous system.

Neither the stress nor the relaxation response is inherently more valuable than the other, but for a body to remain healthy there must be a balance between the two.  When the preponderance of activity is the stress response, serious medical and psychological consequences will ensue.  Medically, people living in chronic stress have much higher rates of heart disease (e.g. hypertension, heart attacks), illnesses of digestion (e.g. ulcers, Irritable Bowel Syndrome, Gastro-Esophageal Reflux Disease, Colitis), obesity (stress hormones increase fatty deposits, especially in the abdomen), insomnia, and headaches.  Psychologically, people living in chronic stress have higher rates of depression, anxiety, and addiction.  Since I am a mental health professional, I’ll focus on the psychological consequences of chronic stress as it affects attorneys.

A report in the Journal of Addictive Medicine published early in 2016 screened a sample of 12,825 licensed, employed attorneys and found that a tremendous level of distress and impairment is widespread.  On the mental health side of the issue of attorney stress, 61% of the sample reported diagnoses of anxiety disorders during their legal career.  Depression diagnoses were confirmed by 46%, and 11.5% reported suicidal thoughts experienced during their legal career, including high rates of self-injurious behaviors and prior suicide attempts.  On the addiction side of the issue, nearly 21% of the sample reported problematic drinking, with 36% reporting hazardous drinking styles (e.g. binge drinking).  About 75% of the sample reported using stimulant drugs, half acknowledged using sedatives, nearly one third reported marijuana use, and more than 20% reported using opioids.  About 25% of the sample reported patterns of use consistent with some level of drug misuse.

A 2017 report in the Journal of Health and Social Behavior surveyed 8,243 attorneys from Canada and the United States and found that rates of depression, anxiety, substance abuse, and overall poor medical health were far higher in attorneys than the general population, and much worse in the United States than Canada.  This study looked closely at measures of perceived status and found that attorneys working for high prestige law firms suffered disproportionately compared to peers in mid-level or small firms.  Rates of stress-related illnesses, both medical and psychological, were highly elevated in high status, young attorneys, with very low levels of overall life satisfaction.  The predictive factor?  Extraordinarily high levels of work hours and little time for personal activities.  In other words, these attorneys have no work/life balance, and are slowly killing themselves through carrying a tremendous stress load in their bodies.

I am happy to report that there are two antidotes to this problem: managing your body’s stress load through intentional activation of the relaxation response and/or cutting back on the amount of work you’re doing.  In this article I’m not going to try to fight the battle of work load, so instead I’ll focus on stress management skills.

Remember earlier in this article when I said that “the body keeps the score”?  The first principle I want to express is that stress is a biological phenomenon, not a failure of the mind or the will!  Too many people, including people in my field of mental health caregiving, act as if their body’s stress load is the result of being weak minded.  Nothing could be further from the truth!  The body reacts moment-to-moment as stressors appear.  You can’t stop that from happening, but you can recognize when it is happening and engage in practices that give your body a necessary break.

Which leads me to the second principle I want to express: there are simple things you can do to help your body to reduce its stress load.  Take a walk, meditate, do some yoga or exercise, watch a funny movie.  All of these activities lower stress hormone levels in the body.  What you will notice each of these activities has in common is that they all involve focusing the mind on fewer objects of attention, and allowing the mind to stop making decisions and judgments.  The body’s stress response is absolutely proportional to the number of mental objects it must keep in awareness (think “multi-tasking” here) and how demanding each mental object is to you.  A phrase you can use to describe the state of mind in which you keep your mind focused on a single object of attention in a non-judgmental way is “being mindful.”  Fifteen minutes of mindfulness practices will go a long way to bringing your body’s stress level back to a baseline level.  And, ironically, taking a break to become mindful and relaxed actually increases job productivity!  In other words, you’ll get more done in less time if you allow your body to stand down for fifteen minutes a few times a day, every day.

A third and final principle I want to express is that stress-related impairment in the work place is called burnout, and it is preventable.  More and more corporations are now incorporating stress management opportunities as part of their corporate culture, and not just in Silicon Valley.  Old line companies like Proctor & Gamble, Aetna, General Mills, and Deutsche Bank have meditation and yoga programs built into their corporate fiber.  In fact William George, the former CEO of Medtronic and current Harvard Business School Professor, has meditated since 1974 and now counts mindfulness as a key element to business leadership.  The emerging generation of lawyers expect that their employers will seek to help them maintain a work/life balance, and value the accommodations that can be made in the workplace to help manage stress load.

There is no honor in being stressed out.  There is only poor health and mental diminishment that can lead to broken relationships, broken careers, and broken lives.  Self-care is not a sign of weakness.  Stressed out people are simply less able to be fully available to the people they serve, and in any profession with fiduciary responsibilities, like the practice of the law, you can’t afford to allow a high stress load to impair your judgment.  Taking care of yourself is the same as taking care of your clients.  Self-care is a sign of commitment to the highest standards of ethical practice.

 

Mindfulness Matters

The following essay was published recently in the Delaware Business Times, and can be found at DE Business Times.  In this essay I reference the Boys & Girls Clubs of Delaware, an important agency that helps underserved populations in Delaware.  You can read more about the Boys & Girls Clubs of Delaware at Boys & Girls Clubs of Delaware.  Finally, this essay also references a non-profit dedicated to spreading Mindfulness training in Delaware and worldwide, the Global Investment Foundation for Tomorrow, or GIFT.  You can learn more about GIFT at GIFT.  I have been helping GIFT as a paid contractor in Delaware since January of 2017.

If you’ve ever gazed at a very young baby, say about five months old, you’ve likely been gazed at in return.  You’ll notice in that gaze that there is no judgment, perhaps a little joy, maybe some irritation if the baby’s belly is empty or bottom is soiled.  You’ll notice how simple it is to respond in the moment, and in your simple response how easily you feel connected to that young life.

When we talk about “being mindful” we hear all sorts of definitions, and, frankly, a lot of hype sometimes.  But mindfulness is really something quite simple:  paying attention in the present moment without judging.  While it is a very simple construct, its application in our lives is quite a bit of work, at least for adults.   It turns out that children take to this practice easily, because being mindful is a mindset with which they are still familiar.  As adults we turn our attention again and again to the past and the future, often at the expense of noticing the present moment.  And sometimes, when we notice the present moment, we allow our memories or anticipation to cloud our perspective of what is happening right here, right now.

Boys and Girls Clubs of Delaware(BGCDE) serves over 40,000 kids annually.  During spring 2017, I had the pleasure of introducing simple mindfulness practices to a group of full time employees, through the GIFT Initiative.  Each of these dedicated staff recognized in their mindfulness practices the simple child-like innocence of the mindful state.  The result, staff are finding ways to help the kids they serve to experience being simply present, paying attention on purpose, and not judging.

Why does this matter?  When a business invests in their staff’s development and overall wellness, it has a trickledown effect to the services it provides.  In the case of Boys & Girls Clubs of Delaware, informed and trained staff in mindfulness are able to implement strategies and practices into their services to young people, ultimately creating a safe, less stressful environment for kids to be who they are meant to be while exploring opportunities to enhance themselves.

Of course it’s not just children who benefit from mindfulness training.  Most research in this area concerns the impact of mindfulness on adults.  It turns out that mindful adults experience reduced stress, improvements in hypertension and memory, and lower levels of depression, anxiety, and addiction.  Workplace studies have demonstrated that mindful employees are more cooperative in their dealings with other employees, and that the time they take to practice meditation during the workday, typically about 15 minutes, greatly enhances their focus and productivity.  In fact, the list of major corporations that make mindfulness part of their corporate culture is long, and not limited to Silicon Valley high tech firms like Apple, Google, and Facebook.  Companies like General Mills, Aetna, and Proctor and Gamble have meditation and yoga programs.  William “Bill” George, former CEO of Medtronic and current Harvard Business School Professor, has meditated since 1974 and now counts mindfulness as a key element to business leadership.  George states that “mindfulness enables leaders to be fully present, aware of themselves and their impact on other people, and sensitive to their reactions in stressful situations”.

Delaware, with the support of 150+ statewide stakeholders from public and private sectors, is on course to become the First Mindful State.  Mindful school children will find it easier to focus their attention and regulate their emotions.  Mindful teens will be more likely to be self-disciplined and ready for higher education.  Mindful adults will suffer from fewer stress-related illnesses, lowering overall healthcare expenses.  Mindful leaders will have greater calm and clarity making important decisions about the people and corporations they serve.  When a person is mindful there are no more “zero sum” games, only situations in which we all can advance and improve in our lives.

Hypocrisy at its Best

According to the Oxford English Dictionary, the definition of hypocrisy is “the practice of claiming to have higher standards or more noble beliefs than is the case.”  I can only speak for myself, but I think it is very difficult to avoid being a hypocrite!  Imagine a world where everyone claimed that their standard of behavior or belief was only as lofty as their actual behavior.  I like the idea that we claim higher ideals than we’re able to accomplish.  It makes me think of one of my favorite words, aspiration.

When I think of the way I would like to be as a person I am considering my aspirational self.  That version of me is quite wonderful!  He is thoughtful, generous, kind, amusing, erudite, well read: in other words, quite perfect!  But I fail over and over again to live up to this aspirational image as I go about the business of each ordinary day.  I fail over and over again, and regret that I cannot quite meet these standards I set for myself.  And I’m in good company.  No less of a man that Saul of Tarsus, St. Paul to Christians, said “for I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate” (Romans, 7:15).

I have a theory on this that I believe makes sense.  I think that the root of hypocrisy begins, ironically, with aspirational thinking.  I have come to believe that in general people are kindhearted and have a motivation toward “the good.”  At our best we have a strong knowing, maybe even a felt experience, of who we can be at our best, and we want to be at our best, especially with the people we most love.  But we fail for so many reasons.  I think the most common reason is simply fatigue.  We get tired physically and emotionally, and fail to meet our standards.  We get discouraged by life and its many setbacks, sometimes of our own making and sometimes seemingly at random.  And, again, we fail to live up to our own standards.  The fellowship of Alcoholics Anonymous cites an acronym associated with addiction relapse: HALT, or H(ungry), A(ngry), L(onely), T(ired).  Indeed, when any of these conditions are present, we are more likely to fail to live up to our aspirational self.

But we absolutely should set aspirations!  For in the setting of an aspiration we may fail repeatedly, but the intention to live in a loftier way alone lifts the level of our lived experience.  For it is my aspirations that inspire me to be kind, generous, and thoughtful.  It is my aspirations that give me the extra energy at the end of a long day to make one more phone call to offer comfort to someone suffering or advice to someone who feels lost.  My aspirations alone help me to be a better man.  Those same aspirations that sound like accusations in the midst of my failure are the same voices whispering in my ear to persevere in hard times, go the distance, be the best man I can possibly be.

Which brings me back to your mindfulness practice.  If mindfulness is new to you, and you are struggling to find the time and the place to practice mindfulness, do not despair because of your failure to do so.  Continue to aspire to be mindful!  The aspiration alone lifts you up, makes you aware that you could, perhaps should, be engaging the practice, and those thoughts will linger and remind you to take advantage of every opportunity, no matter how small, to reengage the practice.  The intention to be mindful alone will change your way of being.  If you aspire to have a strong mind and gentle heart the pain of your hypocrisy as you fail to be strong and gentle will bring you back to your practice over and over again.  Don’t be afraid to be a hypocrite in the best sense of the word: it is simply your way of living your aspirations.

A Walk in the Woods

My wife is taking the Mindfulness Based Stress Reduction program.  As a mindfulness instructor I’ve avoided trying to influence her to do so and I’ve resisted the temptation to ask her “how is it going?”  Yesterday was her all-day retreat and I did ask afterward what she thought of the training.  She answered that it was quite helpful, and she was grateful for getting the instruction.  She complained mildly, however, about the walking meditation.  “I just don’t care for it because my mind wanders a lot.”

Ironically walking meditation is my most favored form of meditating.  Each meditator tends to have a favored form of meditation and, to some extent, our own way of being mindful.  As a teacher I know that meditation is a simple practice, but also that it is difficult to convey to people what exactly it is we are doing in the moment that we are being mindful.  Since it is a felt experience rather than a cognitive construct, mindfulness instructors turn to metaphors and analogies, always giving guidance and encouragement to our students to persist in the practice.

It is simple to instruct a student in walking meditation if you only focus on the form.  “Walk slowly, deliberately.  Notice all of the sensations.  Start with your feet.  Notice how they feel when they touch the ground and when they balance as you very slowly roll from heel to toe…..”

Today I spent an hour walking mindfully on a path near my home that winds its way through a wooded area.  The trees were festooned with garlands of orange and yellow and green autumnal beauty.  The sweet smell of organic matter decomposing and rotting filled my senses, and made me yearn for my walk to be slower and even more attentive.  Then, with great swiftness and surprise, a flash of white brought my attention to the periphery of my vision.  I stopped and peered through the trees and spotted a white-tailed deer, a doe, about 40 yards from me.  She, too, had stopped and was gazing at me, equally attentive.  I lowered myself to a squatting posture, and returned her gaze.  Our eyes were locked together, and all I could feel was a desire to be as non-threatening to her as I could be, in hopes that she would feel as calm and mindful as I felt.  Our locked gazes lasted for a minute, and then she lowered her head and began to forage in the brush for food.

I began to walk again, still very slowly, but my walking took on a renewed intention.  I was walking in a direction parallel to the doe, as she walked slowly, continuing to forage.  I began to walk with the spirit of ahimsa, the Sanskrit word usually translated as “non-injury.”  I wanted each step to convey to the doe that I was no threat to her.  I wanted my breath and my pulse to be calmed, my heartbeat filled with compassion and warmth.  I wanted to walk as if I could approach her in a clearing in the woods, and she would know I presented no threat, and would only help her if she needed help and I could do so in some way.  As I walked I could feel every fiber of my body, in a way of my being, having the sincere desire to be a source of safety and compassion for this doe in the woods.

After a few minutes she trotted off, probably to find another area with more abundant feed.  I continued to walk, noticing the residual of feeling in my body from my experience of caring for this lovely creature.  And I realized that when we walk in meditation we should imagine that we are walking toward some person or some being that we treasure, who needs to know that we present no threat.  We need to walk with hearts filled with felt-compassion for all creatures, intending to be a source of ahimsa for the world.  If you walk in this way your meditation will bring great peace to your heart and mind, and your life will be filled with great comfort and ease.

Peace,

Jim

It’s Not What the Teacher Says…

It’s what the student hears.

It was a short mindfulness session.  About 20 people showed up for one hour of instruction.  What is mindfulness?  Why would I want to practice this?  How do I do this?

So we started with a simple breath meditation.  Not long, maybe 8 or 10 minutes.  Allowing eyes to close if you’re comfortable with that.  Or just gazing downward a bit, relaxed focus.  The bell rings softly.

Sitting with intention.  Paying attention to the body breathing.  Not changing anything.  Just letting the body breathe the way it does on its own.

Breathes in.  Breathes out.  Notice how the body pauses, takes a short rest.

Mind wanders; that’s what minds do.  That’s OK.  Just notice it.  If it helps, say in your mind’s voice “that’s OK, that’s OK.  It’s just what minds do.”

Notice how your body feels sitting like this.  Feeling supported by this chair.  By this floor.  By this earth.  Letting the chair and the floor and the earth do the work.  And breathing.  No effort.

Just being present.  No task to accomplish.  No “good mindfulness” or “bad mindfulness.”  Just noticing, accepting.

The bell rings again.  Attention returns to the room.  What was it like to use your mind that way?

Nobody speaks at first.  Encouragement is offered.  Maybe that was pleasant, maybe unpleasant.  Doesn’t matter.  What was it like for you?

A young woman speaks first.  Very unpleasant.  My leg itched.  I think a hair caused it.  And you said “don’t move” so I couldn’t move, and it bothered me.

Except for one thing:  I never said “don’t move.”

I smiled before I responded.  She clearly heard “don’t move” yet it wasn’t my voice she heard, it was her own.  The voice that tells a story that explains the events unfolding.  Perhaps she heard “this is meditation.  It is very important, very sacred.  You must behave properly.  Don’t move!”

Or maybe she heard “there must be perfect silence and stillness in the room for this to work.  If I move then I might disturb someone and they won’t get the great results you get from meditation.  Don’t move!”

Many moments of our lives bring events and people that place demands on us, and these demands can be very stressful.  Sometimes we have stories that explain these events, these people, these demands.  These stories make it easier for us to react quickly, and most of the time the story is true, or at least true enough, to get us through any situation.  The problem with these stories is that they’re all preconceived, based on past experiences, and never capture what is actually happening with complete accuracy.  These stories are a kind of conditioned response and they are often ways to keep us safe, to keep us from being hurt.

Being mindful helps us to notice our stories as they arise.  We have a chance, when we’re mindful, to avoid going into our personal story-land and instead work with what actually is happening, instead of our story about it.  But we can’t make this correction if we don’t know there is a story that needs correcting.  By working with out minds in the way that we do when we sit and collect our breath and direct our minds with acceptance, we come to know the stories that we tell, the stories that are typical for each one of us.  And then, with acceptance, we can laugh a bit at our own folly and just live in the moment, live in truth, live in peace.

I never said “don’t move,” and in hearing her own story, perhaps my student for that hour learned a little bit more about the voice she actually heard, the voice of her conditioned learning.  Maybe hearing her story as “just a story” will help her to recognize other stories and live in authenticity and acceptance.  And, really, this is the only way to really live: knowing that each moment of our lives, no matter how pleasant or unpleasant, is worthy of our attention and presence.  Our commitment to live with this level of authenticity allows us to have life, and have it abundantly.

Peace,

Jim